Just to Fill Everyone In

Not that I want to re live this stupid thing I just thought maybe everyone would enjoy hearing about some of the stupid people there are in this world. Here is a story of a girl who doesn't know anything. After BF and I ended things I felt the need to vent. Who wouldn't is my question? So I did and then I was ready to move on. A couple of weeks later, I received a comment on the blog titled bye bye bye that informed me that I had issues for "bashing" my ex online and BF is a great guy. Now maybe I am wrong but in my opinion I did not bash BF in anyway. I did not lie, exaggerate, or call names. In response to said comment I tried to clarify everything, and my BFF/sister wife came to my defense. What true friend wouldn't? Then these girls decided to get the ward know it all involved and he in turn got the entire ward involved, while throwing me and Steph under the bus. Maybe I am just feeling picked on but I was like WTF is going on? We did not start this. Steph and I said our peace and were done with it, until the next night when Steph received a text informing us that we hate everyone and we think we are perfect and blah blah blah. By that point we were literally just laughing, who even gives a damn? Anyway, life is funny and I am happy to be out of that ward and I am pleased to have my blog private. No one from my old ward is invited to read it. HAHA suckers. I think people should learn not to make me mad. I can be a really big brat.

Drama

Drama is not my thing. I try to avoid it as much as I can. My vent post that I posted 2 or more weeks ago, the day after I ended things with BF has sparked an uproar of drama in my life. I am trying to move on and I was doing well with it and still am. It was just slightly put to a hault yesterday when someone I have never even had a conversation with decided it was her place to say something about the post that is 2 weeks old. Hence the drama that I do not need or want in my life. So I am making my blog private. I'll need your email address by the end of the week if you would still like access.

Clarification

I would just like to clarify some things about my blog about ex-BF. When I wrote said blog yes I was mad and venting, however everything I said was the truth. I did not exaggerated. I did not make anything up. Every single day ex-BF had something about me to complain. One day it was my hair, the next it was the way I drive, or the way I eat or the books I read. Everyday was something new and he knew that and we had many many discussions about. And it was not just me, he had something to say about practically everyone. I never said that he was not a nice guy, he can be a very nice guy. I know I dated him for 6 months. It seems to me that the one with issues here are the little bitches that stick their noses into things they know VERY little about.

Busy Having Fun

What a super busy time this has been. Christmas was great, I got a sewing machine that I will be whipipng up all sorts of creations with. It was so great to be able to talk to Justin and just to hang out with fam. I have had a hard time not having to work much lately I just did not know what to do with myself. So I made a little goal to rebound that basketball and try to find some face to make out with. Turns out that is a harder task than I thought it would be. All my boys that I usually kept on a little string to kiss when I want all went out and got themselves serious relationships and one got himself engaged. Hoiw super lame is that? On the 27th Steph and I went to a freakin awesome concert. The Cab and The Higher. 2 of my all time favorite bands, And we rocked out so stinkin hard I had whip lash the next day. I love the Cab with all my heart, their music is so fun and the Higher I have been their number 1 lover for like 3 years at least. This week I have barely had to work at all so I sewed a dress with my new machine. unfortunately I made it too big on top and it just sags. I am thinking I will give it to my little sister, her boobies are much bigger than mine so I am thinking it will fit her better. Steph and I party hardy in Mesquite new years night. We hooked up with some drunk cowboys who let us gamble with their money which was totally awesome except for Hank the guy who was giving me money. I lost it all. Too bad. I am sure they were real disappointed when they didn't get any kind of actions from us after we spent their money. Drunk people are funny except when they are drunk indians that I don't know that follow me around and grab my butt. 3 times my butt got grabbed, after the 3rd time I recruited one of the drunkk cowboys to be my bodyguard. At midnight my bodyguard kissed Stephanie. I didn't get a new years kiss but I got 3 new years butt grabs. Wow I am so lucky. Honestly though explain to me how I was fondled more at the casino then I was at a concert where we were all crammed in like sardines and we were all rocking out? Does it make sense? Maybe a little but not a lot. Anyway my Christmas and New years weeks have kicked butt so hard that I now have a cold. My life is awesome.

Bye Bye Bye

BF and I are no longer. I can and will do much much better than someone who finds the need to criticize every move I make. I actually look forward to finding someone who's head is not so far up their butt they don't even see that they are doing something wrong. I cried for about ten minutes last night and thats it. That says something right. Like I totally know he was not nice and I can do better. Sure he had his nice moments but OVER ALL he is not nice. I'm also looking forward to finding someone that does not think they are above everyone else. Over all I don't feel very bad or sad about breaking up with him. I mean he basically broke up with me three weeks ago when he told me he hasn't been happy at all and again used that as another chance to take my so called "flaws" and throw them in my face, like he did every other chance he got. I think the biggest thing that "bugged him about me" was me. He was not happy with anything I did and quiet frankly I am happy that I can finally be myself and not get in trouble with anyone for it. He hates when I post things on my blog about him Ha I wonder how he'll feel about this post thats completely about him and its not even good things being said. Suck on that ex-BF.

Hey Santa

After so many people asking me what I want for Christmas I finally decided I should make a list. So I have spent much time on the internet finding things I would enjoy receiving for Christmas. Here is my grown up Christmas List:

1) Flannel Pajama's (my friend Jed reminded me that they make flannel pj's and thats all I can think about now)
2) David Cook's Album (he is such a babe)
3) Blankets, Blankets, Blankets (once I leave my bosses house I'll be back to living in a refridgerator)
4) Jeans (Every pair I own has holes in them and it is so stinking hard to find jeans that fit right)
5) Any movie with Audrey Hepburne, Bing Crosby, and or Fred Astaire in it
6) New scriptures (well maybe, mine are falling apart but I can't imagine parting with them)
7) Any weird looking vases, picture frames, pictures, ect. for my house (I enjoy odd pieces. Mine and Steph's house is very interesting)
8) A motorized spinning toothbrush thing (cause its fun when my teeth vibrate:)
9) A new make up bag (I have had the same one since I won it on graduation night)
10) A cute glasses case to hold my eye glasses(I just have an ugly black one that is partially broken cause I sat on it)

I think that is a pretty good list. Please note that my favorite colors are purple, pink, yellow, red, and grey but dark grey not light grey, and sometimes orange. Thank you Santa. Love Shauntae

Day ? I lost Count

Seriously how long have I been here? I am stranded on this loud, toys everywhere island. I find myself staring out the window wondering if I am really dreaming or lost, I feel like I have been admitted to the insane hospital. Everything looks so familiar and yet so strange at the same time. Then it snowed yesterday, all day long, and today it is icy cold. I can still see my breath. That seeing your breath crap is supposed to be over by 8 in the morning. This is St. George for crying out loud. What is going on? Just kidding. Things have not been bad at all. Last night BF came over and we had a very enjoyable night watching White Christmas. And this morning Alex made me laugh very hard when this happened: I hear screaming and grunting in frustration and I go to see what is the matter. "What's wrong Alex?" I asked. "It peed on me. Agh, you see, this is why I hate penises." he practically yells and cries this out at the same time. He hadn't made it to the bathroom in time and peed his pants a little bit. Hahaha I have been laughing about it all day long. Seriously though I feel as though I have been here for 11 years. Please make the days move by faster.